Thinker

people say that we need to have year resolution so that we can make each year more meaningful

the idea of this resolution thing basically come from two aspects: goal and motivation

setting goal is a way to push yourself to continue a meaningful life, with passion

regardless of short-term or long-term goal, it's all good as motivator, if u're passionate on it

go plan some if you need, but sadly it's not working on me :(

being a thinker these days as i always do when i'm alone

without involving myself in the outside world interaction, my thinker level eventually increased

been thinking about my life, my lifestyle, my social network, my studies, my current, my future, my inner thoughts, my closest, my personality, my appearance, my room, my house and lots lots lots lots lots lots..

my current lifestyle:

day and night is terribly messed up for few reasons

1. i got used to it after the assignments and finals weeks

2. the only time for 'working' is midnight

i just cant do anything when the kids are awake, need to entertain and babysit them coz mom will not able to handle them for long hours

i've indirectly given the responsibility to babysit them for some reason..

quite helpless and i seriously donwan this, it's not a 21 years old guy's life at all!

but i have no choice :(

will not be expressing on other matters although it's.... gonna explode

it's time to understand more about psychology by meeting someone i guess

i realize myself is hard to get someone to listen and talk to

not because there's no one but my mask is OVERPOWERING me when facing a second party

so not sure whether that someone is able to help or not.

what i want to highlight is that, silent reflection is good but it will become bad if reflect too much

will lead to serious despair!!!! don kai wan xiao..

so it's time to go out and have fresh air

-wil-

is this my final decision?