Just exactly one weeks ago, my mum and I together with aunt and her daughter went to Ipoh for a Chinese tradition event -- 问米. I don't know how to translate to English but just a simple explanation, it is to get some "professional" to invite the deceased (usually family) in posses her so that we can have a "chat" with the one we missed so much.
This kind of virtual is kinda controversial, believers and non-believers varied. To me, I am still half believe in it although I had seen it with my naked eyes. I know some of us there also not 100% convinced but the time we get in touch with the one we loved we missed, none of us even have time to think about anything. The moment we hear grandma's voice, tears drop immediately without any hesitation because we missed her too much. We did not tell the lady anything about ourselves and the family to avoid "information leaking" and to see whether is that grandma. Guess what? She was able to recognize us and tell us things that only our family member but not any stranger would know. This eventually convinced me a bit in addition of how much we miss her. She was able to tell us what happened at the moment she passed away and the fact that my aunt had shifted from condominium to landed house so that she wouldn't need to climb so high.
Monday, June 24, 2013
Friday, June 7, 2013
What Am I Doing?
3.00 am
I was lying on the couch
Looking at the ceiling, staring at the fan, listening to the radio music
Then i walked to my room
Again lying on my bed
Staring at the window, looking out at the sky, listening to music from phone
I appreciate every midnight for the only time i get full freedom alone
But not for today
All i was thinking is about what am i doing now?
All i heard and felt was just my heartbeat
It's been lifeless days without any plan any goal
Being jobless for more than 1 month
Wasn't feeling anything before but till i lost my laptop, free time became infinite
It's just life without goal, without companion, without a thing that worth crossing my mind
What am i doing?
Where am i going?
What can i do?
Pray hard that i can still go on a beautiful life though i don really pray
Music now is my best companion. Thank you so much!
-wil-
Live like you're dying
I was lying on the couch
Looking at the ceiling, staring at the fan, listening to the radio music
Then i walked to my room
Again lying on my bed
Staring at the window, looking out at the sky, listening to music from phone
I appreciate every midnight for the only time i get full freedom alone
But not for today
All i was thinking is about what am i doing now?
All i heard and felt was just my heartbeat
It's been lifeless days without any plan any goal
Being jobless for more than 1 month
Wasn't feeling anything before but till i lost my laptop, free time became infinite
It's just life without goal, without companion, without a thing that worth crossing my mind
What am i doing?
Where am i going?
What can i do?
Pray hard that i can still go on a beautiful life though i don really pray
Music now is my best companion. Thank you so much!
-wil-
Live like you're dying