Gratitude

thanks for giving me so much problem
to allow me grow stronger with each challenge i faced
yet, i tend to blame people every time i face any difficulty
just did it last few days and somore the person had nothing to do with the problem
it's my weakness i know and conscious about it
kinda regret for saying what i said and pity the person for kena "shoot" all of sudden
trying to get rid of it, believe me =(

in fact, unconsciously i'm learning from it but never know on the spot
after some time, i automatically know what to do when similar problems occurs
i couldn't imagine how will i be if i did not pass through all these challenges i faced
it all started since childhood, kindergarten, primary school, high school, college, tuition, family
that memories, environment, people around me have trained me to be a stronger person
and these challenges will never stop even till i get old
it's tough.. but i know i can pass through and it'll be a reward for me in the future

today, another challenge came up to me
emo-ed and suffocated for one whole night..
after a night of reflection, eventually i managed to solve it with much courage but contained avoidance
sorry for blaming you but thanks for leaving me alone so i could learn again
another "mission accomplished" but after today, a lot will be coming since she's leaving
CAN'T IMAGINE WHAT'S COMING! RARH!!!!!!!
god bless me..
still, thank you once again >.<

-wil-
"WHY ME?!"